I find myself in a bit of a bind. A dilemma if you will. Just to provide a little context to my current social quandary, my job, a position of moderate authority necessitates certain obligatory responsibilities, if you are to be effective in the role. Conditions and training that must be completed if you are to satisfy your role sufficiently. As a professional courtesy, I was enrolled in First Aid training. A three day course that permits exemption from my usually daily duties, in exchange for tuition at a training centre that just so happens to be located a mere 10 mins from my house. With the added incentive of gaining official accreditation as a first aider, as well as the benefit of a useful life skill. Unfortunately having arrived for our second day’s training we were informed that a member of group had tested positive for Covid 19. This meant that course had to be postponed and 3 other colleagues as well as myself had to self-isolate (Thankfully on full pay).
A rather advantageous holiday enforced by current government stipulations that permitted an extended, if fortuitous convalescence. This obviously provides ample opportunity to perform long neglected domestic tasks. Repairing shelving. Cultivating my considerable back garden. Reorganising my clutter, because when you’re in a relationship it’s clearly “MY” stuff that is in the way. And being the naturally laid-back individual that I am, I achieved none of these objectives. I was instead content to while away the time eating, sleeping and stubbing my toe (don’t ask!). Gaming without restrain however came less instinctive. An particuarly ominous predicament considering my usually obsessive personality.
Having recently attained the Platinum for Just Cause 4, an accomplishment only achieved by 0.3% of participants, I had vetted a number of potential replacements in anticipation of its completion. Until Dawn, Final Fantasy VII, Concrete Genie, all downloaded and ready to play. Yet none of them seemed right. They’re all games I want to play, most requiring significant time complete. Time, courtesy of Rona, I’d been furnished with. And still, nothing.
Perhaps the generous allocation was the problem. A cognitive impairment, bred from the hesitancy of excessive deliberation. I’m so used to be coerced by the restraints of time, making swift, instinctive commitments rather than linger on a decision. Employing a natural frugality that informs my usually judicious mandate. That being afforded the time to really think about my choices actually stunted my ability to make an informed critical judgment.
Instead I create arbitrary excuses to deflect from making a decision. Mentally erected blockades and artifical barriers that prevent me from making any call, let alone the right one. It wasn’t until my quarantine was nearly over that I finally settled on “Assassin’s Creed: Valhalla”. A game that at the time I didn’t even OWN let alone listed! I had everything to choose from, but nothing to play.
Have you ever had this problem? Let me know in the comments below. Cheers.